Confessions of a Pessioptimist

I go from Hot, to Cold to Funny. Which am I today?

Monday, September 11, 2006

Strive for Sans Emotion

In my short lifetime, I've learned a very important lesson. One in which I involuntarily refuse to grasp.

No emotion = GOOD

Emotion = BAD

I'm constantly reminded that, whenever you express yourself passionately, emotionally... basically.. being real... that is highly frowned upon. Then you're dramatic.. over the top...extra..etc.

What is so wrong with being real?

It seems to me that the people who are the most respected are those who hide the majority of their feelings. Those who don't express themselves openly. Those whom.. you often don't know what they are thinking.

It's curious to me. What's ironic to me about this post is that I'm portraying this thought to you, while knowing that it makes me look weak.

Humans are interesting. Feel free not to tell me how you feel about this post.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Dave Chapelle's Lost Episodes

**Please note the imitation of Andre 3000.. funniest part in there, IMO**

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

my newest obsession

Lupe Fiasco "I gotcha"

Thursday, August 31, 2006


Okay so I'm back from my blogger hiatus.

It wasn't really a hiatus, per se'... nothing but pure laziness to come post again... but I'm back and that's all that matters so shut up and thanks.

What's on my mind right now are PEOPLE.

I should have been a psychologist or something because the human mind works so in such an interesting way. It is predictable, but it isn't. It is logical, but it doesn't have to be. It is complicated but can be very simple. All depending on the person.

The human being can be very selective. As in...they can tell you everything that is wrong with you, have the very SAME or similar problems with themselves, and never see it, nor want to hear it.

You know what irks me? When people cease being real. The people who are fine until something rocks the boat.. until some drama comes along, and then they want to retreat... as if something else dramatic won't come their way in the very near future.

I am not advocating people WANTING to live with drama or LOOKING for drama... however, realistically, drama happens. Shit happens. There is nothing anyone can do about that when being social with other humans.

So in turn, to be dramatic and withdraw yourself from a situation that may have a little drama to it is highly unrealistic in my opinion. Unless you want to live under a rock for the rest of your life and not interact with ANYONE, you need to deal with it.

Once again, I'm not talking about random ass, over-the-top drama. I'm talking about LIFE.

That really irks me about some people. In fact, people who live at either spectrum irk me. Meaning, people who refuse to deal with things irk me,and people who are overly dramatic ALL THE TIME irk me.

I don't know.. just venting.

Anyway, I should be back, at least for a little while... :)

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Watch Out For the Big Girls

First Seen @ NovaSlim

Thursday, June 08, 2006

the saga continues....

i told you it was on, didn't i?

old is the new young

So I have tried to take time and reflect on the fact that I will be 27 in T-6 days. I haven't made a big deal of my birthdays since... I was like..16 maybe? I know people who have to make big theatrical productions of their birthdays or else their world will fall upon itself.

It's a nice day but ... in reality it's just another one. I'm still in my mid-20's, still on the grind, still working through the curves that life throws me on the regular.

I'm noticing more and more nowadays that young girls are latching on to me as a mentor of some sorts.

if they only knew.

seriously though... i've been able to give them good advice as well. I can't say that I've changed much in the last few years.. i've always been pretty low-key and drama-free... sure i may have punched a chick a few years ago, and used to jump in Sigma stroll lines like it was nothing (can i do that jumpin-hoppin-spinnin stuff nowadays...NAH.)

I actually like growing up, even though being an adult SUCKS ass and if you don't believe me, ask an adult.

After all, if you look at even just celebrities, they look kinda tore up in their early years, but in their 30's and 40's they look fabulous. That's what I wanna be, a fabulous 30 year old. That's what's up. At least I have time to prepare.

Additionally, don't let anyone convince you that the older you get the more mature you get. I call shenanigans on that, and for exhibit A i point you to the 50 year old nigga at the club with the kangol and tight TODD SMITH shirt on still runnin after the lil girls.... or the 30 year old man who got 8 kids by 8 different women and still going strong.

IMO, maturity is a lifestyle choice. We all have choices to make, daily, and we could all choose to do immature things on the regular... or not. no doubt, some folks personalities lean towards mature/immature, and that's how they always have been, but that doesn't change the fact that people make choices based on their situations.

That being said... on June 14th, 2006, for everyone reading this, have a glass of Chocolate Cask & Creme for me, in the most uncelebratory way possible.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Mockery or Inspiration?

You be the judge.